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I had someone ask me this weekend how I managed to work while dealing with my mood disorder. I calmly explained to them that I basically started working in the mental health field before I graduated from college and was taught to drop yourself and your issues at the door when beginning your work day when I first started out in the field. It was not an easy lesson to learn but now has become so ingrained in my life that I allow it to spill over into my personal life sometimes by not letting my guard down with safe people. I have to work harder at letting my clients know me then worrying about keeping myself put together. I am assumed to be more serious than I am because I struggle to smile due to having been diagnosed with tardive dyskinesia and grimacing when stressed. I have been assumed to be a witch with a capital B at times because of this. It makes me feel pretty bad because it is so far from the truth. I go above and beyond for most all of my clients. So it hurts when I had the TD happen and assumptions made. I would give anything to not have a mood disorder but they run in my family and I was the lucky one to get Bipolar I Disorder. It took forever to get a proper diagnosis with nearly ten years of misdiagnosis occurring before I got my diagnosis and was put on the right meds. During this time I shared very little with my co-workers and family and it took me almost dying from a drug overdose before people knew I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder. I do not make it public knowledge but I don’t hide it under a rock either. I suppose one day I will have to retire from the mental health field and do something different for my sanity. I know I have good clinical skills though. When I struggle my paperwork suffers more than anything. I contemplate working in another area of mental health or a different field some days when I am really struggling. I don’t know if it is possible. I would need more schooling to do certain jobs. Some seem overwhelming to even think about. So one day you might hear me say, I am going to do something totally different with my life. You never know…
Tardive dyskinesia is a disorder that results in involuntary, repetitive body movements. This may include grimacing, sticking out the tongue or smacking of the lips. Additionally there may be rapid jerking movements or slow writhing movements. In about 20% of people, decreased functioning results. It is caused by the long-term use of anti-psychotic meds (or some other types of meds such as stomach medications.)
I was diagnosed with Tardive Dyskinesia after being on high doses of two, anti-psychotic medications for several years as my mood stabilizers. I had lip smacking and grimacing that was interfering in my interactions and my psychiatrist did not catch it. When I finally brought it up to my psychiatrist, we had to pull me off both anti-psychotic medications (one quickly and one titrated over several weeks) as we started a new med to stabilize my mood that would hopefully have less side effects. The problem was though that in all of the twelve years that I had been on anti-psychotic medications as my mood stabilizers, no one had ever done an AIMS (Abnormal Involuntary Movement Scale) test to check for tardive dyskinesia.
In my job I attend a lot of psychiatric appointments. I have to say that I don’t see a lot of AIMS tests being done by the psychiatric community as a whole for the folks that they are prescribing anti-psychotic meds for. If you are being prescribed anti-psychotic medication for Bipolar or any other mental illness you should be having an AIMS test done at least once every three to six months at minimum. The potential for the involuntary movements associated with tardive dyskinesia to become permanent is there and if suspected should be followed up on by a Neurologist not a psychiatrist.
Most people with Medicaid and Medicare where I work are still being given Cogentin for involuntary movements which is actually contraindicated for them. There are two new meds on the market for Tardive Dyskinesia…Austedo and Ingrezza. They are very new and very expensive and most people have not even heard of these meds yet. They are for those people who have been having difficulty functioning with their involuntary movements. The National DBSA website has a whole page on their website dedicated to educating people regarding Tardive Dyskinesia. If this is something that impacts you, I strongly encourage you to visit the page to educate yourself and then have a conversation with your psychiatrist or physician about it.