As a social worker in the field of mental health for almost thirty years, I have had it drilled into me to leave my issues at the door when I arrive for work each morning. Having mental health issues myself over time has made this a difficult enough thing to work with. But now that I have lymphoma it has become a constant struggle on days that the pain is unrelenting or I just am exhausted or not feeling well. It is so much harder to drop myself at the door and not allow clients into my personal life even though they may eventually see it for themselves if I lose more hair, etc.
I know some of my clients couldn’t handle knowing and some could but I really struggle to say I am okay to them when I haven’t been recently. Ethics can be such a complicated thing. So for now I go on pretending to be okay for their sake.
I’m still waiting on prior auths with my new insurance. It seems like it is taking forever. I just want a status report on the lymphoma and to know where we are heading from here treatment wise. it could change a lot of things quickly.
Hope you all are well.