I have now been dating the same person for six weeks. It remains going well despite the struggle to return to work and balance both home and work life with a job that is both physically and mentally exhausting at times. Sometimes I feel like I fail at balancing both home and work life well and maintaining responsibilities. It is an ongoing challenge that most case managers/social workers face in their jobs. There is simply too much to do and too little time to do it in and it makes it hard to accomplish everything especially when you employment status is salary exempt (meaning that no matter how much work there is to be done you will only be paid 37.5 hours to complete it in whether you work 45-55. We are currently completing lean projects and our work load went up and they are trying to find ways for us to work smarter not harder.
I am still adjusting to being back at work and trying to catch up to speed with my clients while having other workers dump what they didn’t do in my lap that still needs to be completed while adjusting to the next requirements. Trying to juggle this plus several messes that were made of my clients’ situations which have left many of them in crisis since I returned, has not made an easy transition. Add on top that I came down with a case of bronchitis this past week and it was even more challenging. I am still trying to balance meeting my client needs with getting home early so that I can spentd time with my significant other and maintain our relationship. While it is going well, I know that the amount of hours I work has been taking it’s toll on them and that concerns me. So my goal this week was to use my hot spot which allows me to access our agency server and type progress notes as I am with the client. Then today my hot spot was not working. I felt more exasperated than words can speak. We have several deadlines this week due to it being month’s end and I am afraid that I won’t be able to make them and unless my boss can understand that my computer was not working this afternoon I couldn’I have handle going back to work receive a written warning for late paperwork. It is the icing the cake.
Mood wise I have done better than I thought I would in returning to work. I was very hesitant when we came to the point that I had to return to work. But overall it has gone better than I expected it to. I think that mood has been much more stable since I have someone to share my life with and have support from. I feel blessed by their presence in my life and like they bring out the best in me. The qualities of my personality that I often keep hidden I have been much more likely to share. They make me feel like they bring out the best qualities in my personality and character and for that I am a better person since they are in my life. I just need to be able to give equally at home and work and I have never done that before. Old dogs learning new tricks takes a while.