I am sorry I have not been posting much recently. I started a new relationship that is different from all my past relationships. While it is good, it is scary and strange and unfamiliar territory for me.
I have never been one to be vulnerable with my thoughts or feelings and I am trying to do this because for the first time I feel safe. It is not an easy choice for my me to start a relationship and I have never been one to be for commitments. They scare the crap put off me.
So far this person, who started out as my friend and knowing a lot aboute , has loved me flaws and all. They love even when I am ready to run because of my gear of commitment. They wait patiently as I attempt to find words to describe my feelings.
So bear with me as I stumbled through being in love and vulnerable and so very scared right now.