New Support Group Meeting



Went to my first eating disorders support group last night.  It went about how I thought it would for me.  I ended up being a wallflower throughout the group:  taking everything in and not uttering a single word other than gesturing a very emphatic shaking or nodding of my head.

We read through a handout.  The content of the handout started to get under my skin and fester there throughout the group time.  I have not done well this week and skipped eating for 2 and 1/2 days.  The dietician set the alarm on my phone to go off at noon and six as reminders to eat and I feel so rebellious when I hear them because I am just not hungry.

The other thought that kept crossing my mind as I sat in the group was that the women in the group were worlds ahead of me.  I felt like I was still stuck in my eating disorder behaviors and I have been struggling and I was feeling like a failure from not being able to meet my dietician’s goals this week.  It was like a great big neon sign was flashing “failure” inside my head again and again.

Sigh…I’m so frustrated with myself.  I am heading into a weekend away and afraid that I will fail more so this weekend and that it will be evident to my friend as we travel.  It scares me because I don’t know how to balance the traveling and eating and having to get on the scale Monday afternoon at the doctor’s office.


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