today has been a day in which I have felt out of order for the first time in a couple of weeks… it scares me. I finally went back to sleep and took a nap for six hours!!!!
I am not sure whether I was just feeling overwhelmed by the grief I was feeling or drained from finally letting three weeks of emotions come pouring out last night.
Whatever it was I was scared to be alone in it today and just wanted to put up an out of order sign up on my blog and for life in general. I didn’t even get out of my pajamas. If it weren’t for Al, I’m not sure I would have made it out of bed today. Sometimes when we crash, we crash hard.