“People who wonder whether the glass is half empty or half full miss the point. The glass is refillable.” Source unknown
When I read this quote the light when on. A glass is supposed to be refilled. It is not supposed to be discarded or thrown away. Too often we look at things too simplistically and forget that there is a greater purpose for our lives in much the same way.
I , until recently, had isolated myself away from others in personal life because I was afraid of the impact I would have on them would be negative. The magical thinking left over from the trauma of my childhood was that I was poisonous to others and had nothing to offer others. I have had others tell me otherwise but it was not penetrating my thinking. Lately I have gone back to trying to identify cognitive distortions using CBT and identify them and root them out before they take hold. It takes some work to do it but it is better than letting the negative thoughts run my life.
I want to move on. I want to be able to dream again and believe that I have something to offer other people. I want to follow my own dreams and not be part of someone else’s. I want to believe that I am worth it. I did not survive everything I went through to isolate and destroy the person God has created. You do not shove a lamp under a rock…