The picture above is a pretty accurate picture of me lately. Three of the last seven nights I have fallen asleep in my chair in the living room.
It is really my own fault for taking my meds and then trying to be online after I took them for different reasons. For anyone who has ever taken certain psychotropic meds, they can kick your butt and I have a long history of not sleeping and getting hypomanic to manic or in mixed states because of it so I take meds that make me sleep. So after I take them I have a 1/2 hour to hour window now before I am snoozing no matter where I am at. So since Friday I have now spent 3 nights in my chair sleeping. It is definitely not as comfortable as my bed and I wake up sore from sleeping in funky positions in my arm chair.
So tonight my goal is to sleep in my bed after reading myself to sleep. Being a person with trauma issues, I frequently end up sleeping with the light on in my bedroom. I used to think this was immature and childish but since being in some support groups, I’ve learned that this is not as uncommon as I thought it was. Sometimes we are able to extend more grace to others than we are ourselves.
So here’s to sleeping on a mattress tonight.